Excerpt From God’s Fire Wall School of the Prophets:
Session 4: The Spirit of Knowledge
I know this issue well, having a family member who suffered from this over the past seven years, due to trauma and rejection that came through others while he was younger.
I have lived a life being on suicide watch for my loved one, for all these years, believing that God would keep him from committing suicide.
This all began when he was bullied in school severely by others, causing him to hate himself. I would never wish this on anyone, but having walked this road, I can be a voice to expose the darkness and cry out for life to those who want to give up!
Up until this traumatic experience that occurred seven years ago, he was making As and Bs in school and had been in the “Gifted” program, as well as having an I.Q. test from the school where he tested as a genius.
After the trauma he began making Ds and Fs, and worse yet was written off by the school as “damaged goods.” He began rejecting himself and his gift.
It broke my heart, feeling helpless to help him all these years, while he continually rejected himself and his depression got worse. No parent should ever have to hospitalize their child for the pain that was inflicted by others who should know better.
We had to hospitalize him a few times, getting authorities involved to help us, because the suicide attempts were so strong that it was necessary to get him to a safe place where he could be observed and his medications adjusted.
I will tell you that if you have a child that is like this do not resist getting help! My life over the past seven years has been one of complete havoc, to ensure the safety of my loved one.
God warned me in July of this year, about this attack and to be in prayer and fasting; this attack was going to come against the one I loved.
In the three week fast it was so grievous to see so many young people take their own life. I did get some praise reports though during this time, where some people were unsuccessful and they were given another chance to live, causing them to come to the knowledge of God’s love.
I THANK GOD that I was warned ahead of time; on the day when this came to my own loved one; I knew that it was life and death that day.
I saw the rejection of the enemy against his soul tormenting him and trying to convince him to kill himself. He kept saying over and over “I don’t want to live, I cannot take the pain anymore.”
For those who have been with a child who has this issue, I can tell you there is no darker hole than this. Life is different when you have a loved one who wants to die.
There are sleepless nights where Holy Spirit wakes you up praying; days where God leads you to clean their room and find instruments that they could use to cut and harm themselves; and continued prayer to guard their soul and protect it from those who are used as Satan’s operatives to bully them.
That day, I could feel the darkness all around at that moment and I began to bind the enemy and cry out to God. God said “Robin just speak to him and continue to let him know that you love him. He feels rejected.”
My loved one was in such pain in his soul that it was intolerable for him to deal with it any longer. What I saw was the rejection that was superimposed on his soul by the opinions of man that had become his prison bars, keeping him in a dungeon of depression, feeling unloved.
Although I love him and others do, he was rejecting himself, because of the past wounding in his soul that came from the trauma of being bullied and rejected by others, through constant public displays of shame.
It was the shame that the enemy brought against his soul, which became the vehicle for fear to drive him.”
A saint crying out to God for fullness of deliverance and the manifestation of salvation.
~ Robin Kirby Gatto
Robin Kirby-Gatto operates in the prophetic, bringing the testimony of Jesus into the earth through the scripture Revelation 19:10 “For the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy.” Robin walks in God’s Wisdom, Knowledge and Understanding and is brought into areas to bring a revelation of God’s Truth, The Word as the Holy Spirit brings forth God’s anointing into her ministry.