This morning I’m just sitting here. I have been weeping in my spirit.
As I was talking to another Apostle last night, I begin to tell him how I was grieved and heavy, because there is so much revelation that I have received but I’m not able to release it, because the people are not spiritually mature enough to eat the meat of the Word.
One of the most frustrating things I encounter in ministry is when you’re consistently digging deeper into the Word, your understanding is broader, you are steadily growing and getting downloads from the Throne Room, and you pour out revelation.
But the people seated at the table taste the food and spit it out, because it’s too rich for their sensitive stomachs, so they stay stuck, but want you to continue cooking a meal that they are not going to eat!
As a leader, it is hard to lead a people who want to stay in the cycle of religion and bondage.
I’m truly seeing a people who get caught up in the excitement of the Word, but don’t want the Word to change them.
I told ABBA, the people here in this country are not hungry enough for me.
You try to give them revelation that will grow them spiritually, and they listen and then rebel, against what the Word says.
I asked Him, “What has happened to the people that they don’t want to know You more intimately?
Why do they refuse growth and deeper understanding?
Why do they have a wilderness mentality where they wander in the same cycles of bondage, but when they are presented freedom, they refuse it and they fight against it?
What has happen to the hunger and thirst for more of YAH and wanting to be taught the ways of holiness and righteousness?”
I said to Him, “ABBA, you know my heart’s desire is to only please you, but today I’m frustrated, because I have so much I want to release, but can’t, because the people don’t want instructions, they just want their flesh pacified.”
I asked, “What happened, that the hunger for the Word has decreased so much and they are just looking for a prophesy from man?”
I asked Him, “Why are You continuing to give me these revelations and then I don’t have a people who are ready to receive them?”
I know He gives me revelations, instructions and teachings that are hard for people to receive.
Those things He speaks to me are not popular or well received, because they challenge the thinking of the people and the lifestyle they are living.
I don’t get those little cute messages, but hardcore sayings that cause people to want to literally kill me, because the words expose sin, iniquities, hidden secrets and exposes the works of darkness in the Kingdom.
When you are constantly in YAH’s presence, listening for instructions and directions and seeking for understanding and revelations of His word and ways, people tend to move away from you, because your conversation is always about what YAH is doing, what He is revealing, what He is saying, and I’m finding out that people are not looking for that depth of knowledge.
I observe on social media that people will dismiss those things that correct, rebuke chastise and align to make them a better person and reveal insight that will develop their character attitude and behavior but will go crazy for anything that has prophecies about money fame or a man/ woman!
As I’m sitting here, I’m letting YAH truly deal with me, because I said this morning that I was getting tired of social media, because of so much foolishness and right now I’m seeking Him for a more excellent way to help those who truly want help.
I know I am asking Him, how do I weed out the bad so that I can truly deal with the ones who definitely want help and growth?
I love teaching and revealing mysteries of the Word, that will ignite a fire in the people to learn more about YAH and His ways!
People, there is so much more to be explored in the Word, so much more we can learned. It’s so much we can be doing and seeing concerning YAHWEH.
The miracles, signs and wonders He wants to do and reveal to us is mind blowing.
What He really wants to do will amaze us. It’s so much more we as leaders want to pour out but the people want to keep us praying about them getting money or rather they going to get a man or woman or for them to get a platform.
I want to open up a Prayerline, but the selfish prayer requests, the “Gimme! Gimme! Gimme!” mentality just made me wait.
I want to pray for people who are trying to get delivered and set free. Those who are seeking for salvation, those whom the doctor said, “It doesn’t look good for you!” and they need a miracle.
I want to counsel people with real problems, who are about to lose their minds, who are suicidal, whose homes needs restoration, whose children are acting up, those who are being abused.
But so often we get more requests about pray for me to be rich, or I am waiting on my husband or wife, or looking for some fleshly prophesy.
Today I’m seeking YAH for some answers. Asking Him, “Is my time up in this country?” “Do I need to move to another?” “Is social media what I need to be doing, or is there another way He needs me to go?”
When you see what could happen for the people, but then see that they don’t want it, then it’s hard sometimes to keep pouring into dry unproductive wells.
But in it all, my obedience to YAH is what is important to me.
Being able to serve Him and please Him, is my life.
So I seek Him for His will and I stand and wait as He directs me and guides me in this most critical hour.
I’m praying for the Men and Women of YAH who are are feeling a little frustrated today at the attitudes of the people they have been sent to serve!
I know the burden is heavy, but don’t make a decision to quit, move or disconnect, until you get in the presence of YAH and seek Him. Stay there until you are strengthen until you receive a answer.
Sometimes a season of doing something is up and we will continue to do it, because we see the majority doing it.
In this hour, YAH may tell you to move, to close down all social media, to shift the vision of the ministry.
Whatever He says, we must do so that His will can continue to go forth.
Remember, don’t move, don’t stop, because you’re frustrated, but seek YAH for the right way to go.
I know I am!
~ Apostle Barbara R. Thomas
Apostle Barbara R. Thomas is founder of I Come to Heal Ministries, A Woman’s touch Ministry, The Next Dimension Global Outreach Ministries and Spoken Word School of Ministry and is on a mission, traveling the world, proclaiming the Gospel, for souls to be won to the Kingdom of God. She has life mandate to help bring others to their divine purpose.