On April 20th, 2009, the bed in my Denver hotel room bed was not the only edge I sat on. My heart was racing a mile a minute while I sat silently with my head in my hands.
For years I had tried to achieve God’s perfect standard. Despite my many failures, I hung onto this illusion of willpower overcoming the brokenness within me. On this day, my world was crashing down and I knew my reliance on “me” was absolute insanity.
Then I heard His voice. He called me to my knees and without hesitation, I complied.
I didn’t stay there long. Moments later I found myself face down on the floor crying out to God. It was this song playing in my ears. It was this message, combined with the words of my Father, that hit home for me.
It was in the moment that I waved the white flag of unconditional surrender that I heard His voice. What I had tried to accomplish through self effort for more than 20 years, was taking place in my heart in only a few moments.
He was healing and transforming my heart. I had tried time and again to meet His standard from the outside in with willpower of my flesh. He wanted to change me from the inside out with the power of His Spirit!
Yes, on April 20th, 2009, grace went from a concept I kicked around in my mind to a reality I hold in my heart. I have been told that my heart was too far gone to save.
I have been hopeless. I have been on the edge. It was He who told me it was OK to jump. He said He would catch me… and He did!
Maybe you relate with this cut down version of my story. Maybe you have been there. Maybe you are there right now.
I want you to know that there is hope but it won’t be found in you. All of our hopes are found at the foot of the cross where our Savior bled and died for YOU. Thank you, Jesus!
~ Mitch Salmon