That Ache So Deep….


Steve and I both had a stirring, and an ache, a need to talk over and deeply ponder the questions of the heart this evening and spent a few hours in dialog, crying out in messy prayers to the Father and shedding many tears, much of them in unintelligible sobs and choked out words.

This world we live in is in terrible flux.  Our little piece of it sees many families fighting (young and old), people resisting the taking of humble steps towards change that would spare children and spouses deep wounds.

We wept and prayed for those stirring up and demanding others to “push, give, sacrifice”  — serve the “church”, yet many of these individuals hide internal rage and insecurities, not heeding the warnings about their own home life and strife within.

We live in a world that is passing away, every day that occurs it edges us closer to the time of choosing whom we serve…. not whom we casually have knowledge of or a limited commitment to.

I’m ever so aware of the need to live, limp, exist each moment of the day in “the Presence,” in full exposure to the probing eye and heart of God.

I whisper repeatedly, “Have your way Father.  Have your freedom to do your work in me. Have your way.”

Are you being drawn into a place of desperate abandon to separate yourself and re-examine the path up ahead?

Friend, yield to the tears, the examination and probing of your heart, and speak out to the Father about all of it.

These are the days where you and I can “choose” to grow, move forward, and live simpler, narrower paths, or — draw back and remain dull, returning to the familiar and comfortable settings where WE “choose” to steer the course of our hearts.

Choose the way where Peace leads you, even when torrents of tears and unanswered longings are prevalent.

Keeping letting go of fears within and fears without until your stride is firm and has consistent sweet conversation with the one called alongside to help.

The very Holy Spirit Of God, is a wonderful traveling companion.

“And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, to walk alongside with you forever, even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him.  You know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you,”   John 14:16-17.


In His Shadow,
~ Mary Lindow ©

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That Ache So Deep…. — 1 Comment

  1. Yes and continue to die to self and crucify our flesh on the cross to walk in forgiveness humility love mercy walk as Jesus walked on this earth. To let go of sins and come to true repentance