This needs to be said again and again!
Real-talk: Until the Pain Is Gone, Everyone You Meet You Will Love Wrongly!
How can someone love you for you, when you have barricaded and buried yourself inside the issues that have taken place in your life?
Many are waiting on God to send them their spouse, but who will they find when they find you?
Will they find that person who is yet entrapped in sorrowful memories of a past love that has hurt them?
Will they yet find you in the cave of silent rage and bitterness from a secret shame of molestation or rape?
Will they yet find you locked inside of emotions that have tainted your soul?
Will they find a person whose identity is so twisted, that they don’t know who they are themselves?
We have created a false identity, because we don’t want anybody to know that we are yet broken, bruised and battered mentally, from the injustice we have suffered in our lives, that has locked us in, so we relive that moment over and over in our minds and soul.
We have a ugly image of love, because our encounter with it is associated with pain.
We drift from person to person, searching for the one person who can unlock the desire of love within us, and we continue to be delusional, because every encounter of love we embraced, continues to leave us unfulfilled and burdened with more hurt and pain.
There is a longing to be free to give your heart to someone who can help you to learn how to love.
It’s sad to see a person with no ability to know and show love. It is in the soul of that person, that pains, hurts and destructive emotions must be dug out, so that the horrors of life that has closed the soul from receiving love, can be cultivated to receive love and to produce love.
The most powerful encounter you can have with love is when you receive Christ as your Savior.
He shows you the beauty and tenderness of unconditional, unreserved, ever flowing rivers of pure, genuine, untainted, emotions of love.
It is our encounter with this love, that pulls us from the emotional, mental, spiritual state of loneliness and desperation, from the pits of bitterness and despairs, that cleanses us in our minds and souls and then begins the process within us, to start the journey of loving ourselves.
Until we can get to this point, no matter how much we look for love and want love, we won’t be able to apprehend love, until we are mended and the broken pieces of our lives are brought from shattered places and we are made whole!
Until then, the best thing you can do for you, and anyone that you meet, is to have a sign upon your soul that says:
“SORRY CLOSED FOR REPAIRS. DO NOT ENTERED THIS AREA BECAUSE IT IS DANGEROUS!”
God doesn’t want to send you someone to rescue you, but to enhance, embrace, elevate and complement you!
Love can and will wait until you find you!
Today is the best day to begin that search!
~ Apostle Barbara R. Thomas
Apostle Barbara R. Thomas is founder of I Come to Heal Ministries, A Woman’s touch Ministry, The Next Dimension Global Outreach Ministries and Spoken Word School of Ministry and is on a mission, travelling the world, proclaiming the Gospel, for souls to be won to the Kingdom of God. She has life mandate to help bring others to their divine purpose.