It has been a long and lonely road called “Counting The Cost” for me, beloved — and I have only one thing to say — It has been worth it all!

As I have been desperately trying to bring my “Heart Book” to a closure, I seem to keep thinking of things that weighed my heart down, challenged my heart and changed my heart, I realized that counting the cost of answering the Call as a prophet, had been much greater than I could ever have imagined.

And yet… I can honestly say, it has been the greatest learning time and rewarding time of my life.

Pretty much, it has been all about falling in love over and over again with the heart of The LORD, and to experience a Life and Heart changing Love — like no other!

One thing I have experienced in my prophetic gift is the increase of the gift of a Seer.

I once only heard the Word of The LORD but now I see and hear at the same time, in most cases.

I believe that has happened during my intimate times with The LORD. He has opened my eyes to see and hear at the same time.

“I AM getting My Chosen Ones ready for big breakthroughs and I have prepared an elevated place for you in the realm of the Spirit.

But before you can move up, some of you must recognize and deal with what has caused you to hesitate and that hesitation has been holding you back.

It is to ‘count the cost time’ — let The Truth arise in the inward parts at this time and move forward in Wisdom.

The timing of The LORD is here for tying up all the ‘loose ends’ of yesterday — for you have entered a new era of great Grace to finish your race!” says The Father God.

Counting the Cost also involves the counting the cost of Forgiveness, which I have been writing much about and in this word today,

The LORD brought to my mind, what I now call, “the last word” for choosing to forgive.

I had a very deep hurt, that no matter how many times I chose to forgive or as I said, ‘went through the motions to obey God’ but kept wanting my ‘feelings’ to feel warm and happy about the matter, that one deep hurt just felt like it was lodged in my heart forever.

The LORD led me to a teaching quite some time ago that I feel is the last Word I will share on this topic for now.

I will never forget this teaching, but do not remember the source of it.

This is it:

“Forgiveness is me giving up the right to hurt you for hurting me. Instead of hurting you for hurting me, I make a conscious choice to free you despite hurting me.

While hurt people hurt people, free people will free people.

Bottom line is when someone hurts us, Jesus stands with us, beside us.

He sees it all. His word to us is that He hopes we will forgive this person this offense in the same way He forgave us at the cross.

That means we will place our trust in HIM to heal us, restore us, and set us free from the hurt and the memory of it.”

The LORD shared with me today a Word that He has spoken to me many times saying:

“Never forget, when you take the first step, I will take two.

You are entering into the Perfect Plan of your inheritance just as I have promised.

Nothing can stop you. This is your appointed time. You shall finish well and wear the Victor’s Crown!”

Beloved, this is a Word for me personally but it is not just for me… it is for many who have fought countless battles that came to change their heart and knock them out before they got to the ‘last round’ of their fight.

“The enemy attempted to make you lose heart but you have kept your heart with diligence,” says The LORD.

“Your challenges have forged courage in your spirit. Your suffering has developed the strength that only long suffering provides as it has allowed patience to have her perfect work that you may be perfect and complete lacking nothing.

Your gift of faith is continuing to teach you how to live above the circumstances with a greater heart expectancy and that, beloved, is continuing to drive out all the deceptive lies that the enemy continually bombards you with that are sent by the spirit of fear.

Freedom is now joining hands with faith and love to cast out any fear that came to bring death to your gift and call.

As your heart is stayed on me, you shall be remembered as a peacemaker for I AM the strength and joy of your heart,” says The LORD.

“You shall walk by faith as a Godly Influencer, for I AM open your eyes to see yourself as I see you.

The Kingly Influencers shall lead the way in these last days setting the example of changed hearts and changed minds from fear to Faith.

It is later than you think and it is urgent to discern the times. This is a wake up call for the just shall truly live by Faith.”

 

~ Sandi Holman

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Sandi Holman of Matters of the Heart website was called to The Nations as an End-Time Handmaiden in 1984 and served on staff with YWAM Singapore and YWAM Charlotte in missions. She later experienced a Divine Encounter with The LORD when He came into her Prayer Room and said, “I have come to put a sword in your hand and was given special instructions on how and when to use it.” Sandi is now an Author, Prophetic Intercessor, Seer, Chaplain, Teacher, Speaker, Counselor, Blogger who has also served as an Online Pastor and an Interim Pastor for a Mennonite Church.

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