I have been following the News, and The LORD has been exposing all of the lies and deception going on all over the world.

As I pondered all of the ‘bad news’, I suddenly realized my need to really Pray, and before I could begin, suddenly I felt the presence of The LORD in my room and I had a personal encounter with The LORD that gave me a real personal ‘wake up call’.

Years ago, when I was just entering ministry, a well known Minister called me out and gave me a Prophetic Word.

He said, “God has a call on your life as a prophet. He has called you to go to The Nations.”

Then he said, “As you serve Him faithfully, you will know deception — from jot to tittle!”

Then he said, “A Prophet has no honor in his own home town.” (Matthew 13:57)

I have repeated that many times….

A few years ago, The LORD told me that He was calling me to write a Book about the heart and what it means to keep your heart with all diligence for out of it flows all the issues of life.

When I married my husband 13 years ago, I was living in North Carolina, but I agreed to move back to Tennessee where I was born and raised.

It has been a constant battle with darkness ever since then.

I have struggled with the spirit of rejection ever since I moved back here.

It wasn’t until I started having some health problems in these last few months that I realized I simply was not being honest with myself regarding the reality of “where I am” and “why” the writing of the book has become harder and harder since I moved back to Tennessee!

It has been one battle after the other….

I thank God for all He has taught me and the tangible Love I feel from Him every moment.

When I first moved back here, my computer crashed and I lost all that I had written regarding the heart.

During the month of February, both my husband and I have had to deal with health problems. So, I started a fast a week ago seeking The LORD for direction regarding ‘my book’ on the heart.

I say to you all, that I have had to walk out every issue that I am still writing about which I did not expect. Only God knows our heart…

Yesterday, The LORD again spoke clearly to me as I was ‘trying’ to Pray and Intercede for our country’s leaders and for President Trump.

He said, ‘You cannot stand in the gap for the dishonesty and deception that is constantly being revealed, because you have not been honest with yourself regarding your heart and the loneliness you have felt in Tennessee.”

He went on to say that I had built a wall for “self protection….”

He said, “I AM giving you space to repent for rejecting yourself!

You are being deceived by the stronghold of competition that captivated you as a child and is still very present now.”

He said, “You must let Honesty deliver you from self rejection and receive everlasting healing of self rejection, as you embrace The Truth that you are Mine and I have called you to continue on your journey of writing about the heart!”

Today, I have sat with The LORD in true honest repentance.

He lovingly spoke to me saying, “You are my daughter and I say to you, ‘Do you remember when I first taught you how to order your day the moment you wake up?’

I said, ‘Set your mind on things above and let your mind be renewed daily, and it will light your day and govern your actions as you change your thinking’.

Never forget the lessons I have taught you about The Fear of The LORD.

The enemy came immediately with self-rejection when you moved back to your hometown,” said The LORD God.

“I bring to your remembrance that I spoke to you that when you are honest with your LORD, it creates within your heart a desire to be honest with yourself and your fellow men in all areas of life.

Never forget, I AM your friend Who listens with understanding. Your heart will always be restless until you are filled with total peace with your LORD.

So, just tell your soul to ‘chill out’ and obey My Word that says, ‘My soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him.’ (Psalm 62:5)

Stress, my daughter, has become one of the leading causes of depression, sickness, and disease in your culture.

The enemy has come to attack you with constant stress.

You know that you know that there is always Hope.

You cannot control what happens to you, but you must take control of how you respond to it.

I AM with you and I will never fail you.

There has always been stress. The Psalmist spoke about stressful situations and how he learned to wait upon The LORD ‘who never failed him’!”

The LORD continued speak to me saying. “This encounter today had to take place as you were praying for President Trump in this urgent time for intercession.

It is time to travail to prevail!

It will always bring breakthrough.

Pray for those who are part of his ‘inner circle’ that they will be faithful and honest in their relationship and call to serve The USA.

True Honesty has been missing in all of those in control of government.

Nevertheless, I AM exposing, revealing and judging the deception that has been at work.

So keep your heart with true honesty as you allow me to show you your heart.”

“Blessed is the man who trusts in The LORD and whose hope is The LORD. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters which spread out its roots by the rivers, and will not fear when heat comes, but its leaf will be green, and will not be anxious in the year of drought, nor will cease from yielding fruit.” Jeremiah 17:7-8.

 

~ Sandi Holman

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Sandi Holman of Matters of the Heart website was called to The Nations as an End-Time Handmaiden in 1984 and served on staff with YWAM Singapore and YWAM Charlotte in missions. She later experienced a Divine Encounter with The LORD when He came into her Prayer Room and said, “I have come to put a sword in your hand and was given special instructions on how and when to use it.” Sandi is now an Author, Prophetic Intercessor, Seer, Chaplain, Teacher, Speaker, Counselor, Blogger who has also served as an Online Pastor and an Interim Pastor for a Mennonite Church.

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