Change has many faces….. 

I have learned that Change is one of the most important choices The LORD gives us to manage all of the issues of the heart.

Sometimes God doesn’t change our situation, because He is trying to change our heart.

This is indeed a truth we all must come to grips with.  For myself, I have learned to say over and over, “Show me my heart, LORD!”

Beloved, when God speaks, everything changes!

As I was pondering the many seasons when it seemed as though The LORD was silent and had nothing to say to me, The LORD reminded me of the many times as a single mom, I was called out of audiences and someone gave me a Prophetic Word and they always said, “Why won’t you answer the call God has on your life?”

That went on for several years, while my sons were in high school and college.

So when my two sons finally graduated college, I said, “Lord, if it is not too late, I will go.  Here I am, send me!”

I then began to sell my belongings and get down to two suitcases to go!  Just as I was moving forward, my grandmother was raped, beat up and robbed and I was at a loss as to what to do.

The LORD, said, “This is your assignment to take care of her!  You must not abandon her. She felt abandoned most of her life and I will not abandon her.”

I took care of her for 4½ years.  During the first six months, I was in a state of confusion about my Call to do ‘something important; for The LORD…  After all, I had taken a vow as an End-time Handmaiden to go anywhere He sent me, to do what He told me, etc.

In my despair and confusion, I asked everyone I knew, every pastor, every leader the same question, ”Does God ever change His mind?”

No one gave me the answer I needed in order to bring comfort to my heart.  I came to the conclusion that I had ‘missed God’.  It was then I swallowed the lie, that God had changed His Mind.

Then one day, He spoke to me and said, “Your Nana has had a very hard life, and she loves you with all her heart.  You are all she has.

She was orphaned at twelve years old, abandoned by her husband, who went out for coffee one day and never came back.

She was left with very little education and two children to raise during the war and great depression.

She felt abandoned all of her life.  With my help, she helped raise you.  Your times are in My Hands and great shall be your reward.”

God Spoke and Everything Changed Dramatically

I had many wonderful heart changing experiences with The LORD during that time.

Someone hit my car in the parking lot and it was destroyed.  The LORD provided me a car and the $500.00 to buy it from a Christian lady.

When my Nana died, I said,  “LORD, what can I do now?”

He said, “Nothing has changed — except the time.  I have not changed My Mind.  I have a Plan for your life — to go to The Nations.”

I said, “But LORD, I don’t have any money!”

He said,  “I AM your Provider, I pay for what I order.”

So, I had no money except an insurance policy from my Nana for $1000.  I sold the $500 car back to the lady I got it from and used the $500.00 for a ticket to Hawaii to YWAM KONA to do a Discipleship Training School, not knowing how I would pay for it.

All I had coming was the $1000.00 insurance policy.  My son, Todd, was there on staff after his training.  He went to Youth With a Mission (YWAM) as soon as he graduated from Oral Roberts University.

I said,  “Todd, I have no money.”  He laughed and said, “Momma, I didn’t have any money when I went either, but God has provided!”

So once again, God changes not!  He miraculously provided for my school and my outreach and sent me to four countries during my outreach — with no money — except what He provided through some in my school who could not go on outreach as well as friends back home who believed in my Call from God.  The rest is history.

I had no plans after my outreach — but He did.  He sent me from my outreach in the Philippines back to Singapore, and provided a friend from France to travel with me, since this was all new to me.

Change has many Faces.  The first CHANGE He introduced me to, was FAITH.

CHANGE was waiting for me to take a CHANCE.

The LORD has told me many times that there is only one letter different between CHANGE and CHANCE and He was simply saying:  You must take a CHANCE and step out in Faith, in order to see the CHANGE He had planned for me to fulfill my destiny and fulfill my purpose and His Plan.

I heard The LORD clearly say, “Someone needs to hear these parts of your story today, in order to embrace the CHANGES that I have set in place for them for the end-time move of My Spirit,’

The LORD said, “In these end times, My People shall begin to understand that the delays they have experienced during this time of chaos and upheaval in The Nations, are not denial.

I have been been calling them to seek My Face and practice My Presence.

It is imperative for them to know My Voice, for My Word says, “My Sheep hear My Voice, and I know them, and they follow me,” (John 10:27)

“You are walking in a time of great darkness,” says The Father,  “but it is deceiving.  I AM drawing you closer than ever before.

I have many things to tell you.  I AM not concerned about the darkness, for the day is right at hand when I will step down into the darkness and the brightness of My Light shall Change everything.

I desire to speak to you.  You must write it down, for what I tell you in the dark night, take many notes and write it down for what I give you, you will declare when the darkness of the night is past,” says The LORD.

Jesus Teaches the Fear of God

“Whatever I tell you in the dark, speak in the light; and what you hear in the ear, preach on the housetops.”    Matthew 10:27 NKJV

For quite a long time, I have heard The LORD speaking,  “Prepare ye the way in the wilderness, for your land in parched and dry and in great need of the Rain of My Spirit.

I so desire to flow freely like a River of Living Water through you.

Are you willing to make a Highway of Holiness for Me in the dryness of the desert?

It is my desire for your heart to be purified, and be a highway that leads to Hope and Life.”

There is much talk about the wilderness experience, and the many changes on the horizon as we emerge out of the dryness of of the wilderness.

“At this time, there is much Change and many Changes taking place,” says The One Who is the Change Agent of all the world..

“Change often comes to challenge your comfort.  It challenges your values and everything you view as stability and security.

But I Change not!  I AM the same yesterday, today, and forever.  I AM in you, and I AM leading you and I AM all you need.

I say embrace The Changes I have for you, and befriend the change that is shaking you loose from yesterday.

Many hearts are established in the comfort zone of self preservation, and it always rise up in the atmosphere of change to keep you in the prison of your soul (mind, will, and emotions).

I have brought you to the crossroads of Choice, to be willing to step into the challenge of a Heart Change, to walk into the unknown, and shine your light int the darkness with an expectant heart that leaves all hopelessness and despair behind.

You are living at a time when living in Faith will be known as the norm, as the challenges of the end-times are creating pressure.

Many are coming out of a Wilderness Experience that has been perfecting the many things that concerned them.

I have allowed their hearts to develop a desperate Dependence on Me, that has caused them to serve Me with a selfless Servant’s Heart, that willingly obeys My Word,” says The LORD.

“Their hearts I have enlarged to carry The Fire of My Love to a lost, miserable world!”

“Who is this one? She arises out of her desert, clinging to her beloved. When I awakened you under the apple tree, as you were feasting upon me, I awakened your innermost being with the travail of birth as you longed for more of me.”   Song of Songs 8:5 TPT

 

~ Sandi Holman

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Sandi Holman of Matters of the Heart website was called to The Nations as an End-Time Handmaiden in 1984 and served on staff with YWAM Singapore and YWAM Charlotte in missions. She later experienced a Divine Encounter with The LORD when He came into her Prayer Room and said, “I have come to put a sword in your hand and was given special instructions on how and when to use it.” Sandi is now an Author, Prophetic Intercessor, Seer, Chaplain, Teacher, Speaker, Counselor, Blogger who has also served as an Online Pastor and an Interim Pastor for a Mennonite Church.

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