I realize that not everyone here has heard my story. I’m not going to go into that today but I have had these words impressed upon my heart to share. When I fell on my face that night in April of 2009, I was broken.
For years I had striven to live up to God’s standard. Time and time again I had failed. I hid my face from my Father because I imagined that He was thoroughly ashamed of His child. How could He love a thief, a liar, an adulterer, a selfish, greedy fool and a lip server?
When I was growing up, I was taught that those who love the Lord will do His will. Those who love Him will get it RIGHT. I had never gotten it right. It wasn’t for my lack of effort, but rather for my lack of ability.
By the time I reached that hotel room floor, I had already pursued all of the lies about happiness. I had placed my faith into wealth but no amount of money could fill the vast void within me. I had pursued every sexual encounter that suited my fancy, but rather than fulfilling my desires, the pursuit of my flesh filled lust left me empty.
I pursued love as well. I sought it in relationships with other people but in the end, none of them could bear my burdens and so relationship after relationship collapsed. I pursued exotic hobbies and adventures but when the adventure was over, reality returned and it was lacking. I was empty with no real hope of fulfillment. I was selfish, neurotic, and entirely consumed with ME… and yet no one really got to know me.
My greatest fear was being found out for who I was. I knew that I would be rejected by all; DESPISED by all. I was unlikable… even to myself, let alone unlovable.
Those of you who have known me for a while may be saying, “That isn’t the ‘you’ that I have come to know!” You’re right, but then you probably didn’t know me before April 21st of 2009. So the real question here is, “What changed?”
I am so glad that you asked! There were some revelations that led up to that time on the floor before God. For the sake of this post I am only going to focus on one of them. I came to terms with the fact that I couldn’t do it. I would never be enough and I would never be righteous on my own. More importantly, I came to terms with the fact that I was NOT trustworthy.
While on that floor, I was presented with these realities. I couldn’t trust me. I couldn’t trust you. I couldn’t trust the promises of this world, but could I truly trust HIM?
To tell you the truth, I was uncertain of that answer at the time.It was by logical deduction that I had eliminated all of these possibilities. I had literally tried them all… and exhausted all hope in these things. There was only ONE possibility that remained. I gave up and handed it all to HIM.
What amazed me was that at the very moment I had surrendered I heard His voice speaking to me. He said much more than these four words I present to you, but these were the words that literally changed my life… “You are good enough.”
For all of these years I had pursued righteousness. For all these years I had sought happiness and some lasting peace. What I had invested so much time and energy into wasn’t found until my failure. Love, peace, grace, mercy; these concepts were completely foreign to me… perhaps because I never had these capabilities originating from me.
All I knew were lies and cover-ups. The things that I desired could only be found in Christ, and him alone.
Jesus met me on that floor. He KNEW the words I longed to hear. He couldn’t say them until the defeat of Mitch and the birth of Christ in mitch. Four words set into motion honesty with Him and with the world. Four words transformed me from a “lowly worm” unfit to be in HIS presence into a loved child of God. Four words set me FREE. This entire ministry began with four simple words!
Of course, when God spoke these words to me, He wasn’t speaking of me specifically. He was talking about Jesus in me. It was only through him that I could be, “good enough.”
I knew that “I” couldn’t be who he claimed me to be. It was only Christ in me. Me being proclaimed in this was a gift that I could never have earned. So it is clearly by His GRACE that I was saved!
So who leads in this group? Clearly it isn’t me! This group was founded BY Christ, FOR Christ so that the good news would be available to all. This is HIS home and you are welcomed!
What are the words that your heart longs to hear? I can tell you that your works will not produce them. Not even you will believe what you are saying. There is victory to be found but it begins with SURRENDER.
So here’s the good news. You don’t need to fix yourself. You don’t need to get it right. There is no secret code or handshake. It comes down to this. You must give up on “you” before your will truly find HIM.
So stop knowing only what you have been told about God and get to know Him for yourself. Inviting Him into REAL relationship begins with GETTING real with Him in your relationship. As always, I am here if you need someone to talk to. You can contact me on Facebook or write to me via e-mail at: email@example.com
I write these words with all the love in my heart. It doesn’t belong to me or originate from me. It is from Him… and so I will continue to give it away.
Your Brother, mitch
There is no better day for me to share this video. Since God began doing HIS work in my heart, I have kept a specific fondness for this one. It is the truth of my story wrapped up in a single song. Please, I urge you not just to watch this video but to do so without distraction. I urge you to listen closely to the words and decide for yourself, “are these true?”
~ Mitch Salmon