There are so many things that I haven’t done yet in my life. So many dreams and plans that didn’t happen yet.
One of my goals in the past years was to be one of the finest men anyone ever knew by the time I reached 50 years old. It didn’t happen. So I gave myself another ten years to get it done. I still don’t thing I made it yet.
I always wanted to make a music album. I wanted to publish my book and never dreamed God’s timing wasn’t right, that years would go by, that it was sealed for a future time. Who would have thought that.
Will I ever be grateful enough for all the things God has done for me?
Will I ever truly realize the things He has spared me from, some which didn’t even know about?
For years I have struggled to love myself, to see myself as God see me. Have I suffered enough, have I been molded enough that I can finally do the work God has always intended for me to do?
And for God’s sake, will I ever stop being so judgmental of other people, especially before I know all the facts?
I didn’t know I had so many character defects, but I sure knew all of yours!
How much more hurt do I have to endure before I finally learn to love as He did?
I have a lot of work to do…..
We once sang, “To be like Jesus, to be like Jesus….. on earth I long to be like Him.”
I loved that chorus so much then, but I didn’t really know what that meant.
Lanny Wolfe wrote “Whatever it Takes.” Oh really?
We loved singing it, but we didn’t know what we were asking.
However, God heard us and took us at our word. I can be real. They’ve been times, that if I had known what “whatever” really meant, I wouldn’t have sung that song.
But I do want to be like Him. I think I always did. And I think I’ll win….. this time.
First published: January 2, 2010.
~ Robert Blackburn