This is a story about a person I used to know, but the effect of that life, is still in operation trying to hinder.

It is a constant battle of casting down and believing in the perfect work The LORD Jesus is doing now in me and through me.

I was an only child born into a family rooted in witchcraft, insane jealousy, homosexuality, and so dysfunctional that I could never have any company over the house — or ever encouraged to get involved in any extracurricular activities at school.

I would get into arguments with my parents, because I could not handle being home with them.

When I got old enough, I would wander far away from the home and got involved in the wrong company, introducing me to glue sniffing and alcohol and drugs at an early age.

Instead of staying home with my parents and face the fighting, I wandered from one dangerous pool joint to another, hitchhiking, so stoned that I could have passed out on the side of the road and ending up in the most dangerous places — and God protected me!

When I had Levi, I was so very immature, because I had escaped my whole adolescence through drug abuse.

So, you would say that I was a “special needs child” facing the responsibility of a “special needs son,” who was born with brain damage.

Most births like Levi end up with cerebral palsy. Levi battles grand mall seizures, which are frightening to see.

My mother displayed satanic possession, which was like living the Exorcist Movie.

I didn’t know The LORD at the time, and all I knew of was the presence of evil. Levi was two years old when we had to live with her and I ended up with depression, because of the guilt of my sinful life.

This is when I got saved and got delivered of depression and guilt, and I knew I had turned my life around to follow Jesus.

Now I feel like a young wayward child with no parents, facing huge trials of what to do with my future.

Lee has been a blessing from God, caring for both Levi and me and the fear of losing him is tremendous — how I would ever face life on my own with the fear of being around people.

And now with Lee’s trial reading the medical reports has gotten me where I don’t want to face the future and life itself.

I absolutely dread life and my future.

I could write a book on my life and how He protected me and Levi.

Yes, I am a work in progress. I still come under great attacks from the enemy trying to hinder my healing and deliverance.

I know witchcraft is a stubborn spirit that thinks it has legal rights to my life.

 

~ Yolanda Ballard

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Yolanda Ballard of At The Father’s Feet website, shares with you, the body of Christ, the words she’s received quietly sitting at The Father’s feet. I believe Jesus set the example for us to follow. Whenever He could He would come apart from the busyness of the world so that He could quiet Himself before The Father, for that is where He received direction and strength to carry out His will.

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