Where I left off with my Testimony before, was with my childhood years.
Please see Parts 1 & 2 here: “Testimony and The Wait on The LORD is Weighty“
As I told in the forward of my books, many times I failed, but The LORD never failed me.
Now I will continue to my grown, and married ‘middle of the road’ years.
There are things sometimes I publicly don’t want to tell, but if we are real and transparent maybe it will help someone else not even fall into these traps!
The day I turned 18 years old, I snuck off and got married. Only my Mama knew, as I trusted her. Out of fear of my daddy I kept it from him.
It was a wrong choice, and the sorrow from my choice caused myself, and more importantly many others, great pain.
We were married for 11 years, but did have 3 beautiful kids together!
Let me say I did love my husband with all my heart, but he beat me to death with scriptures from the Bible, about being submissive.
Also, I was in severe bondage and in part, didn’t even know how much for a long time. I was not allowed — for several years — to hold money or even have a key to our houses we lived in!
It was pounded in me how clumsy I was, and he was the head of the house. Neither was I mature and perfect in some matters, so we fought a lot.
While I won’t go into explicit details, out of respect for my family and very old friends, he finally went to prison for several years at the end of our marriage.
I chose to divorce him, while he was in prison.
Then at a Bible Conference I loved to attend 3 times a year, (they were week long, very powerful anointed meetings), I met someone.
He was, I thought spiritual, funny, and very caring. I fell hard for him. Still not right, away but after a couple months we became engaged.
I little by little, started letting my standards down and began sleeping with him.
Conviction was on me, (thank God for that.)
As I had repented and tried to break away from the sin, the man one night held me around the throat! I was scared to say the least!!
See I was in a mess and needed The LORD to get me out of it!!
What I told my fiance was, I could not stay in Church and be a leader in it, and continue in sin. He got very angry!
All I knew to do that night as his hands was on my throat was pray, “LORD, show me what to do. I promise you I will not marry him if you spare my life.”
The Holy Spirit spoke to me: “Show no Fear!” The other part was, “Don’t look away!”
As I obeyed, the demonic look came off my fiance and he played it off as a joke. It wasn’t a joke by any means!
All I wanted was my life back and be in good standing with The LORD. So now the man was gone out of my life.
Guess what? I was now pregnant with my fourth child. As I didn’t believe in abortions I had my fourth child.
What a blessing she was, but oh the pain it caused her with no daddy in her life. She was born when I was thirty years old.
So if you are pondering about sin — don’t!
Even if you allow The LORD to straighten your sin out, it has CONSEQUENCES!
This was a hard Testimony as my daughter is now passed to glory since December 2019. We all miss her every day but God’s Grace is surely sufficient!
God has used even my weak moments and brought good out of it.
Still there is no time to get caught up in ANY kind of sin anymore!
We are in the last of the last days. Hope this may help some of you. Any of us can fall if we don’t keep our focus on The LORD. Pressing on in Him.
God bless you.
“Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.” Corinthians 6:18-20 KJV.
(To be continued — Part 4)
~ Joyce D. McGuire
My name is Joyce D. McGuire, called as an Apostle of the faith by His grace. I am also a chaplain to the prisons, a Mother in the Kingdom of God and intercessor. To many I am simply Mama Joyce. Some favorite verses are Matthew 11:28-30.