The other day as I was talking with a friend when she began telling me about all the battles that she was going though in every area of her life.
She told me about her physical ailments, financial difficulties and family issues. I allowed her to continue talking because she was so distraught and needed a listening ear to release all that heaviness, confusion and fear.
She then said to me, “If I didn’t know any better I would think that God hated me.”
She went on to say, “I don’t understand why God allowed these things to happen.”
Right after she said that, The LORD showed me something powerful. This is a woman of great faith, but the spiritual warfare in her life has caused her to doubt God’s promises and provision.
She lost her focus on who she was in Christ. She forgot about all the things that Jesus had done in the past and how He brought her through every battle victoriously.
She was agreeing with the enemy and allowing fear and bitterness to take root in her heart and mind. T his certainly was a word for me also, because I am sometimes guilty of the same thing.
As I listened to her I was thinking to myself, the turmoil that she is going through is nothing in comparison to what I’ve been through. I had to refrain myself from telling her about the battles that I had endured because I didn’t want to discourage her.
The Holy Spirit then brought me back to a story from the book of Numbers. The LORD told Moses to send twelve men, one from each of the twelve tribes of Israel to spy out the land of Canaan (which is also known as the Promised Land).
Ten out of the twelve spies came back with a bad report, because they encountered giants in the land.
These are the same men who had experienced great miracles such as manna from heaven, a cloud by day and a fire by night.
They watched as The LORD destroyed their enemies when He parted the Red Sea in the past, but when they went into Canaan to spy out the land, they feared the giants rather than remembering all that The LORD had done for them.
Although they returned to Moses with a cluster of grapes that was so huge, that it took two men to carry, they returned with a bad report.
They said: “The land surely does flow with milk and honey but the giants are too large for us to conquer.”
They also said, “We were like grasshoppers in our own sight, and so we were in their sight.”
Two of the twelve spies Joshua and Caleb didn’t deny that there were giants in the land, but they came back with a different report. They said, “Let us go up at once and take possession, for we are well able to overcome it.”
In Numbers 14:24 The LORD said; “but My servant Caleb, because he has a different spirit in him and has followed Me fully, I will bring into the land where he went, and his descendants shall inherit it.”
We are living in a land where we will encounter many giants.
We have to remember who our God is and how Jesus always came through for us in the past and will continue.
The Holy Spirit is also showing me that He wants to use those of you who have also been through a lot of trauma in your life. Someone who has been through unrelenting adversity would be able to minister to another person who is in such a deep place of darkness.
The LORD wants to use everything that you have been through as a testimony to set others free. You will have authority over that which you conquer.
“Then Caleb quieted the people before Moses, and said, “Let us go up at once and take possession, for we are well able to overcome it. ”But the men who had gone up with him said, “We are not able to go up against the people, for they are stronger than we.” And they gave the children of Israel a bad report of the land which they had spied out, saying, “The land through which we have gone as spies is a land that devours its inhabitants, and all the people whom we saw in it are men of great stature. There we saw the giants (the descendants of Anak came from the giants); and we were like grasshoppers in our own sight, and so we were in their sight,” Numbers 13:30 -33.
“Death once stared me in the face, and I was close to slipping into its dark shadows. I was terrified and overcome with sorrow. I cried out to The LORD, “God, come and save me!” He was so kind, so gracious to me. Because of his passion toward me, He made everything right and he restored me,” Psalm 116:3-5 (TPT).
Blessings in Christ Jesus,